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life right now
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life right now

A fly catches in a net, and struggles to regain freedom by thrashing and violently hurtling itself in every direction.

I breathe. The fly launches and launches and the net dances fancifully. There’s a rhythm to the struggle of the fly. A weirdly beautiful rhythm.

Has every fly thanked me for not killing it? If so, why not? They better watch out. I relax, but I’m still fast enough to waste any fly within arm’s reach.

Not really. The fly is actually me, and you just witnessed a humble but unsuccessful attempt at making peace with my inner fly, that flies in all directions in a fruitless panic, in a desperate attempt to get away from the darkness of my own thoughts about the children of billionaires…

Billionaires?

I don’t know much about the world, but I’d rather cross paths with a baby bear.

Honest to god.

This is what life feels like right now.

The present moment feels divisible as air and as boring as an opportunity and as cold as a stairway in Iowa, inspiring as suicide.

By the way

How close are we to trillionaires? Really close or not really?

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